if you don’t know where headed, just keep going. keep at it man. you’ll find your way.
summer
Loose weight—10lbs
Arts—painting and photography
SAT—prep for shitttt
Learn Chinese and a bit of Spanish
Ears pierced
Donate hair, and haircuttttttttt
It just really bothers me. lol.
lol, stop making up excuses for yourself. lol, stop blaming him for your own failures. lol, stop. everything will be okay man. it will.
I think about you all the fucking time. lol.
I’m drawn to you, because for the first time in so long, you made me feel. You made me like I was with him, again.
If one day I make it, would I cross your mind?
“Man doesn’t choose the game. He can only play by the rules he’s given.”
It’s so strange to think that so many other people in the world live such a different life than I.
I have opportunity.
They just have survival.
it’s a joke!
twisted motherfucker.
underserved or undeserved?
i really couldn’t tell the difference.
My mother always asks me why I hold on to the past so much.
well, mom. it’s really the only thing i’ve got. i don’t have anything else. the future really isn’t mines to hold. i’m so apprehensive and uncertain about evertyhing. and is the present really even mine? i do things now so i can better my damn future that might not even show up.
I’m so damn tired. lololol
lol, It get so menacingly tiring to be happy, or pretending to be happy, or pretending to not be sad, or being excited about life, or being loud and crazy. lol. I just want to cry, and bawl, and just be. Be what I really want to be at times. I mean, it’s worked for 16 years of my life. Pretending has worked for so long, but I don’t know how much longer it’ll work. lol. How many more years will I have to go at this? lol 50? 60? lol. (if I even live that long, lol. Fuck long lives, I want a full life.)
I mean, there had been timesI wanted to jump off a bridge. lol. But now, I just want to jump out of my own skin.
I mean, it srsly sucks to be so ashamed of the person that you were.
I mean, it srsly sucks to hate the person that you are.
I mean, it’s just so damn apprehensive to hate the person I’ll become. and I ain’t ever there yet. like, daaaaaaaamn.
I’m waaaaaaaaaaked.
